I survived round one. I stepped into nothingness, lingered there for days and emerged out the other side. The darkness within chemo is something to talk about, but while in it I had no words. Since escaping it, it has taken me almost a week to want to sit down …
May 13 – Mother’s Day “Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.” Proverbs 31:30 NIV Today is Mother’s Day. Probably the strangest Mother’s Day I have had to face. I actually don’t want to get out of bed because …
Time keeps moving forward and yet nothing has started. It has now been almost 6 weeks since my annual mammogram. Seems like a very long time when you have been told you have an aggressive, fast growing cancer in your body — instead of anything being done, I listen to …
Saturday night Matisse is hanging with her friends and one of them asks her what’s wrong. Matisse tells her about my recent diagnosis and sheds a few tears as this woman just listens to her. Then the unfolding begins. Her name is Teresa. She shares with Matisse that she works …
Taking care of other people’s emotions is something I never felt I was good at. I have always seen myself as a “suck it up butter-cup” kind of person. My girlfriend had me take a personality test a week ago and I thought for sure I’d come out as one …
April 17, 2018, 5:30 pm: “Deborah, has anyone read your report to you?” “It’s not good. It shows cancer. You need to come in to the office. Now would be good. I’ll wait for you to get here.” Funny thing, those should be the last words you want to hear. …
