The “C” Word

Posted on: April 17, 2018 Posted by: Deborah Swanson Comments: 12

The “C” Word

April 17, 2018, 5:30 pm:

“Deborah, has anyone read your report to you?”

“It’s not good. It shows cancer. You need to come in to the office. Now would be good. I’ll wait for you to get here.”

Funny thing, those should be the last words you want to hear. And truly they are. Tears streamed down my face as my husband held me in his arms. But I knew those would be the words before I heard them. I knew when I watched the ultrasound. I knew when God whispered in my ear— in His consuming, gentle voice—during Sunday worship three days before, “I am going to take you through cancer.” Now that’s crazy. Right? It’s only crazy if you haven’t been walking so closely with God and you haven’t witnessed His miracles and His unending faithfulness. The most incredible thing about our God is that He truly does invite us in to participate in His work. The second most incredible thing about our God is that He prepared me. I don’t think I am any thing special, I just think He knew I needed to be prepared. And He didn’t just prepare me at the ultrasound or during worship at church; He began preparing me when I was willing to be used, years ago. Really, if I could sit down and tell you all of the absolutely insane, unusual, comical, life threatening, heartbreaking, reality shaking things I have been through in just the past three years you’d say, “God must really have it out for you.” And I would say, “He certainly does.”

You see, about 8 or 9 years ago, I told God, I was “ALL IN.” It wasn’t a big declaration. I didn’t tell anyone about it. It was just between God and me. Each step I have taken since that time has been more purposeful, more intentional, but certainly not perfect. But trust me, each step you’re willing to take with God will be more abundant, genuinely thrilling, sometimes scary, extremely rewarding, and will be the biggest adventure you ever have.

Every step of this journey has prepared me for this moment. Oh you can bet I am scared, full of tears and emotions, but some how prepared.

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  1. My heart is linked with the body of saints that are petitioning to the one who is able….our mighty “King”.
    I will be very intentional inlifting you and your family up up in prayers as the Lord prepares you through this
    journey. Our Heavenly Father has the power heal!
    I know he is close to your heart; he loves you and will walk with you.
    As you press into him he will give you his breath, his presence will surround you and he will provide you abundant strength , hope and a new Love.
    I am so grateful for continually giving yourself to my Daughter Alexis. The love and joy in your heart has such a ripple effect to our Christian community and I have so much respect for you and I love the way that you have chosen to represent our Lord as you trial through the coming days. We serve a God who is sovereign and powerful and so invested in loving you and walking with you and your family.
    If there is anything that I could do, or anything you could think of assigning me to do to ease your upcoming days please do not hesitate to ask.
    Thank You and May God continue to bring you many blessings.

  2. He loves you so much! And yes, He’s prepared you. He will carry you. And while He truly is all you need, He has also placed many people in your life who love you dearly and will stand by you, hold you, pray for you, cook you meals, be your taxi, send you fainting goat videos when you need a chuckle, and just be there for you throughout this season.

  3. I am a cancer survivor. Your faith will pull you through so you can enjoy more smiles on the beach with those you love. Think Positive. EIGBOK


  4. Oh Deborah, I didn’t know, I’m so sorry, but I’m also so thankful that God has prepared you. How gracious He is. My love and prayers are with you and Denise, please keep us updated as you walk this path ?????

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